sleepless night.

it's 5.23 a.m now & i'm still not sleeping. i had my sahur just now; well, i just drank some milk & some plain water. i really felt like barfing. huhh. i thought i was able to stay up tonite, considering the whole cup of "kau" coffee i had at 11. fuhh. but nooo. i had a tummy ache at 2, so i had to go to bed, although i wasn't sleepy. hopefully the 5 chapters of biology i read would stick in my mind. i couldn't proceed with physics which i initially wanted to study. heck. i'm talking crap. where's the timeline? haha.

2.10 a.m:

i laid in bed. i tried very hard to keep my eyes shut. "bella, go to sleep, go to sleep, go to sleep.." i chanted the "mantra" over & over again. but to no avail. i just couldn't doze off. i rubbed my left eye, & it got red. i went to mummy's bedroom & entered the toilet to wash my face. sakit ouh mata. da merah mcm cili da. takot pun ad ble tgk kat cermin. huu. luckily it's ramadan, no setan. haha. hmm. then my mum got awake. she brought me to the kitchen, took some eyemo, put a few drops of it in my left eye & told me to go to bed. i did feel much2 better after that. huu.

3.00 a.m:

my handphone triggered. ooh. a message. hmm. good. i was freakin bored that time. haha. at least somebody's still awake. huu. "hah! nk kcau bella..blabla.." the message sounded something like dat. i was amused. haha. lwknye. out of boredom, i replied. we texted each other. yela. da xle tdo kan. hmm. he couldn't sleep too, so i suggested counting the sheep which can jump over the fence. haha. i never did that before. manade sheep boleh lompat lepas pagar. ade ke? haha. we tried to brainstorm ways to get to sleep. susahnya. then he asked me, who do u see urself in 10 years time? hmm. good question. but a bad idea in helping me get to sleep.

i replied, "job: psychiatrist, with own centre; salary: 10k and above, ngee ; place i live in: somewhere peaceful; house: not a mansion, children: dun mind how many. haha." did that even answer his question? tahlah. blurr la time tu. haha. hmm. we had quite an interesting chat, & somehow it got a bit tense at the end. haha. i even confessed the fact that i lied to the warden that i didn't bring my handphone to school. how did the conversation get to that stage? i dunno. xigtlah. ok. i talk da mcm keling kan. haha. xpla. hmm. only i understand kot.

what i'm telling u has no objective. i'm crapping. gatal tgn nak menaip je.

5.56 a.m.

dah azan subuh :)